The Unexpected

happinessOn The Playlist: TEE SHIRT by Birdy

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I would like to think I’m a pretty resilient person. I’ve lived life struggling more than reaping rewards. Every obstacle I overcome, every mountain I climb… I can only expel a temporary sigh of relief, because I know there’s always something dark lurking just around the corner. Terrible to think this way but if you walked a mile in my shoes you’d understand.

These past few years have taught me a lot about myself. This year especially.

Start to Finish

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On The Playlist: DRUNK IN LOVE by Beyoncé – Drunk in Love ft. JAY Z

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I’ve been trying to get back into the swing of things. Prioritizing, organizing, productivity, completion… I used to never have a problem with getting things done but the past two years it’s proven to be more difficult than I’d remembered. I currently have several projects that I’m working on simultaneously, so needless to say, they’re all unfinished. There are days I just stare at a blank Word document, and even getting a few paragraphs down is torturous. Writing shouldn’t feel that way…writing has always come easily for me, flowed freely.

I’ve always said I don’t believe in writer’s block…I suppose after much analyzing, I discovered the source of my problems. Focus and Fear. Let me explain…

When You Least Expect

serendipityOn The Playlist: NOT A BAD THING by Justin Timberlake

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2013 was a doozy. Fast forward…many things have changed in my life…and some things still remain the same.

I’m in a good place now. I have an amazing group of friends who drag me out of my dark cave for some fresh air and fun. I found my muse and I came to terms with my father’s death. It’s been quite a ride and I’ve finally found the peace I’ve been missing. This year is truly about new beginnings and opportunities. I took some time off of writing so I could heal my head and my heart. Along the way, I’ve met interesting people who made me think…made me see things I hadn’t tried to see before.

I also discovered that it’s okay to fall apart because being strong all the time can become a crutch. You start to put up walls and you start believing that you can never not be strong for everyone’s sake…except your own. I’ve also felt heartbreak and learned that letting go can be healthy. I’ve always believed that love never dies, it transforms. Well, at least the precious kind of love. One that deserves to remain in your heart and life.

The best part of learning is growing. Maturing. Funny how the world looks differently when you shift your perspective. You’re opening yourself to new possibilities and a chance at happiness. I can honestly say that when I started to focus on myself, I was able to attract positive things… people… opportunities.

I’ve even stumbled across something totally unexpected and it’s inspired me a great deal—and it feels damn good! So, this year I’m going to continue to challenge myself and work harder to create even better stories for YOU, my awesome readers.

I promise there will be a new release and I want to THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for your continued love and support! You’re the reason I write…

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Dad 001“All the adversity I’ve had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me… You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.”
—Walt Disney

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This year taught me a lot about myself. I learned to trust my decisions, step back from things that consumed me negatively, embrace true friends who have supported, loved, and comforted me…and I have allowed myself  to grieve my father’s passing…

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has faced adversity and obstacles these past few years, but I can only say one thing, all those elements that tore at my self-confidence and spirit…did not break me.

My outlook has changed, my goals have transformed, and I’ve begun to value those things I’ve inadvertently taken for granted. I’ve tried to carve out more time for myself and I’ve cut back on a lot of my workload in order to heal. I know it will take a bit longer but everyday I’m in a better mental space. I’m learning to embrace my flaws and work at making myself an even better person.

There are certainly days that are more trying than others, yet I’ve made it a mission to make 2014 the beginning of something beautiful. There’s so much I want to do, places to visit, things to accomplish and I’m going to put all my passion and focus into these desires. Life is too short to simply dream, it should be about taking risks and making them happen.

Although my father passed a little over six months ago…today, Christmas Eve..my family and I will still celebrate and honor him on his birthday. I hope I’ve made him proud…and I hope that he’ll continue to look down from the heavens and see me accomplish all those goals I’ve set out to conquer…

I love you, daddy. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Win copies of BRUSH WITH DESIRE!

BrushWithDesire_Cover300*I’m giving away 3 autographed copies of BRUSH WITH DESIRE! (International winners will receive eBook copies) All you have to do is comment on my Facebook Fan Page. Winners will be picked at random on Saturday, October 6th*


SQUEE! I’m totally excited about this release which includes eBook versions, in addition to print!

I wrote this book for Parker Publishing in 2008. It was at the beginning of my career when I was a totally wide-eyed new author. It’s always been a project that remained in my heart no matter how many years have passed. Now ART OF SENSUALITY is re-titled and re-released…during the editing process of this book, and after much thought, I realized I shouldn’t mess with something so special to me. Yes, I did make minor changes and even added an excerpt at the end, but otherwise I chose to leave it virtually the same.

I know it’s a risk because most authors who have re-releases usually make major changes…but I felt strongly about my decision to keep the original version. I hope that those who have not read my work will give it a chance. I’d like for you to discover my voice for the first time and see my love of storytelling through this sensual love story. I hope you’ll take a chance, and experience the emotional ride alongside the characters, as they reach their Happily-Ever-After.

This book has received very awesome reviews when it was initially released―From the RT Book Reviews (4 Stars), Affaire De Coeur (5 Stars), to The Romance Studio (4.5 Stars)…you can see that’s why I made the decision I did. As I pen new romances in all the different genres, I hope you’ll see my growth as a writer and will continue to support me. Also, the best way to help me reach a wider audience to further support me and my books is for you to leave a review on one of the online venues, if you’ve purchased a copy of my book in the past (many thanks in advance). Reviews are what truly helps writers!

For my readers, a BIG THANK YOU for staying with me through the years and for being the reason why I push myself to become a better writer!

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